Creative Blocks-I Feel Them Part II

To unblock myself I took up the challenge of writing one blog post a day for a write.  I found 365 prompts on the web.  I was doing pretty well.  Then I ran into Team Melissa and that whole debacle-I will write more on this in another post.  I didn’t post for about 2 months.  Now that I am free of Team Melissa I have taken up the challenge again.

While it may be put aside if I go to summer school in England-I know myself and get caught up in new adventures and hanging out at Cambridge would be so cool, for now it is a priority.

Often as I write I am dissatisfied with the output-not the quantity but the quality.  So, I get up and walk away disgusted.  I attempt to write on another project, but the results are almost always the same.  I have been working to turn this to an advantage.

Instead of keeping at the piece until I ready to throw it in the trash, I stop as soon as I begin to grow frustrated.  I try to jump into another piece I have been working on.  I work on that until the frustration builds and move again.  So far it hasn’t been as cathartic as I hoped.  But it keeps me moving which is something, even if the movement is more sideways than forward.

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Creative Blocks-I Feel Them

I often feel blocked.  Not because I do not have the words, but because I am sure where to begin, or what to do when I finish.  What it is not any good?  What if it is hackneyed and craptastic writing?  How do I develop characters, so they are not card board cutouts?  How do I write sharper dialogue and more concise descriptions?  How do I get what I envision in my head unto the page?

The writing never seems good enough once I begin.  I fret over its inadequacies and push it away.  I move on to other projects.  Yet the questions remain.  Soon I grow anxious.  When I get anxious I eat.  I have struggled with this for years.  I can’t control or stop the eating.  I have taken to working with it.  I buy fruits and salads and give myself permission to eat them.  Of course I eat it all.  As a consequence I feel guilty for lack of self control.  I eat when I feel guilty too. (On the plus side I work in restaurants and my constant eating has lead to the creation of some wonderful foods).

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